Anxiety struck full force, after I started thinking I might have inadvertently messed something up at work. Or I might not have. I don’t know. Maybe it was just a coincidence. And I might never hear a thing about it again. And maybe it’s just all in my head. I’m weird that way. Crazy is another way to put it. And I know this is all very cryptic, but that’s just what it has to be.
The point is, it’s driving me crazy and making me sick and I’m already dreading Monday, which is not a good way to spend a weekend. I even have to work on Sunday but that’s campaigning and not at the office, so the mess won’t be an issue for that. Hopefully. Ugh! I hate that I can’t just let these things go and stop thinking about it. It’s this downward spiral of negative thinking in which I’m caught way too often these days.
° ° ° °
I’ve decided to give the “bullet journal” thing, yet another try. For the first 4 days I’m not sure yet, if my way of doing it or wanting to do it, is a good one. But I’m determined to keep it up for at least this month and then decide if it’s a thing for me or not.
I’m not quite conistent with my decision to give up chocolate for Lent. There was too much stress in the last couple of days and I’m a stress-eater, when it comes to chocolate. I still managed to lose some weight (not much, bu still some) since the beginning of Lent, so I really should keep the “minmal chocolate” idea up even after Easter.
° ° ° °
My phone seems to be on it’s way to retirement *sigh*. I bought an new battery, but this didn’t help much. In fact it seemed to work worse than the old one. I’m considering to wipe the phone and start all over, but when I wanted to back up my data from my phone, my
computer stopped recognizing the phone as an kind of hardware. No idea what’s going on there. Either way, it sucks, especially as I spent such a long time this afternoon to figure out what to back up and if I really want to wipe the phone and start over. I still haven’t made up my mind as I’m pretty pissed at my phone, the battery, the computer and basically everything else in general. I blame the work-related anxiety.
° ° ° °
For the last few weeks Sam and Luke, the two characters from my unfinished NaNoWriMo 2012 novel, re-entered the world of my imagination. I’d really love to finish telling their story, but the thing is, that I know I’ll never be able to do it satisfactory in English, as I’m not a native English speaker. I started writing the story in English, because at that time it seemed like the right thing to do for various reasons. But I’m realistic enough to have realized by now that I’ll never be able to finish this project. In English, that is. I can see various scenes playing out in my mind, but I’m not sure yet if I’ll be able to write those scenes in German instead of English. And if I do, I would have to translate the rest of the story anyway, which is a daunting idea. Still… something worth thinking about…
° ° ° °
I went through my Twitter feed and finally decided to reduce the number of people I’m following. I’m already working with various lists, so I often only read the lists with the people I absolutely don’t want to miss anything from. I managed to reducde my following list from 420 to 370 people and that might still be too much to handle for me. At the moment, at least.
° ° ° °
After losing the first game in the playoff semis, the Cologne Sharks won the second game tonight. Woohoo. They also played much better than in game 1 of the series so the win is well deserved.