You’re not as messed up as you think you are:
Your self-absorption makes you messier.
Just settle down and you will feel a whole lot better.
Deep down you’re just like everybody else.
(Reasons Not To Be An Idiot ~ Frank Turner, 2008)
And I’ve nothing to say in my defense,
I’m far from perfect and I’m still tense
(Imperfect Tense ~ Frank Turner, 2008)
I couldn’t decide which one of those quotes fit my current state of mind the best. They both feel pretty valid at the moment. I’m – once again – in a really weird mood: Worrying too much, thinking too negative, feeling too overwhelmed, letting anxieties wash over me. I feel messed up and I know that thinking about how messed up I think I am, only makes it worse. But what can I say?
At least I’m acknowledging the problem and am working on it. Bit by bit.
Sorry, that this is such a downer post at the beginning of a week…
[MicroblogMondays started at Mel’s blog]
I heard a great quote today from Anne Lamott: “I would be just fine most of the time, if it weren’t for my mind.” Isn’t that perfect?
I’m sorry you’re dealing with that. :( I find that it can be helpful to write the things that are bothering me down somewhere. Otherwise, my brain just keeps replaying them over and over, and making me feel worse.
Yes, writing those things down, does help. I haven’t managed to make it a habit yet, but I’m working on it